Yoga Is Not A Cure For Depression - But It Can Help

Big rectangles in bright colors scatter the dimly lit room.  On each of them lies a full grown adult, eyes closed.  There is something child-like, something reminiscent of kindergarten nap time about a yoga class.  It's hard not to look around at everybody in the room.  Why are you here?  Do you feel as bad as I do?  I lie back too and close my eyes, trying to calm my turbulent mind and wait for the class to begin. 

Peanut Butter Power Bar Pumpkin Muffins

I had one lonely Power Bar left in one of those big boxes you can buy from Costco.....my least favorite one: peanut butter.  I thought it could help beef up a hearty muffin recipe I've been working on.  The muffin is very healthy, I imagine a park ranger enjoying one of these on a trail in Yosemite or in a fire look-out tower.  Use your imagination here, people.

bpd friend

Out of all the people I have lost in this life, she is one of the ones I miss the most.  I felt a connection with her on that wavelength that only people who have felt the true depths of depression know.  There were often non-verbalized moments between us when the rest of the world would vanish, just a shared moment in time when our eyes would meet and that understanding was there.  More than compassion or sympathy but a true knowing of sadness.  

If you've ever had someone in your life who has borderline personality disorder you probably know how confusing and explosive those relationships are.  Within those turbulent waters we those moments together, a sisterhood of sadness.  We haven't spoken in almost a year; not a day has gone by I haven't glanced over, wishing I could meet her eyes on our own wavelength.  If I saw her today I would tell her I'm not all bad, I miss you so much.

Currently reading Get Me Out of Here: My Recovery From Borderline Personality Disorder by Rachel Reiland. 

WINNERS Haul

Love Winners.  My "Winners price" grand total was $45.12 (it would have been $112.99 if I had paid full retail).  I buy about half of my skin and hair care products there, it's a much less daunting hunt than the clothing selection.  Today's haul included:

• Elizabeth Arden Green Tea Cream Deodorant *UPDATE* nice, fresh, perfect for office-wear, not for sports
• Bliss The Youth As We Know It Anti-Aging Serum *UPDATE* smooth, hydrating
• Shiseido Pureness Gentle Cleansing Sheets (alcohol-free, oil-free) *UPDATE* lovely, beautiful scent, effective
• some sheer nude nail polish that only cost a dollar (!) *UPDATE* failure

They have a pretty good selection of Bliss products right now and they're all about 1/3 full price.  I've had good luck with their "Youth As We Know It" line so I'm pretty curious to try the serum.  Also very interested in the deodorant, I've been on the losing end of many trials of various "natural" deodorants.  My advise:  if you're planning your own natural deodorant trials do it at home.  Not the hot yoga studio.  *Ahem*.   

NARS Pure Radiant Tinted Moisturizer Review

I have never found a tinted moisturizer I actually like.  I don't like this one either, I f'ing love it.  My (problematic) skin was going through one of it's dry spells a few weeks ago so I thought I'd give TMs one more try.  After my daily creeping session on sephora.com turned up promising reviews I headed down to the mall.  This is my first NARS product and I guarantee it will not be my last.  The Sephora girl matched me up with "Alaska", the second lightest shade (I'm NC25 in MAC Studio Sculpt).  "Alaska" is a really nice neutral golden undertone, very similar to NC25